After the voice had spoken, only Jesus was found.  They kept silent, and in those days told no one what they had seen.
Luke 9:36

"...kept silent..."  I wonder if those words were ever before or since spoken about Peter?  He was always the first to speak up with glorious affirmations of Jesus; and always the first to stick his foot in his mouth up to the knee. 

What would it take to shock him into silence?  Not the appearance of Moses and Elijah, he was still talking then.  The overshadowing cloud seemed to end that thought.  I wonder what they saw in that cloud.  Was it the same cloud that lead the Israelites through the desert,  the one Moses disappeared in to receive the commandments? 

They were fisherman, accustomed to fog, it couldn't be any ordinary cloud to bring such fear.  But then, they heard the voice of God; the voice that called Abraham to leave his home for a new land, Paul to leave his heritage to bring Jesus to the world.  The voice of God, sometimes a call to action, sometimes a call to speak, but sometimes a call to trembling silence. 

One day He and His disciples got into a boat and He told them, "Lets cross over to the other side of the lake.  So they set out, and as they were sailing He fell asleep. 
Luke 8: 22-23a

I love this picture.  I see a gorgeous, sunny, spring day.  The boat slowly rocks in the breeze and the oars splash softly in the water.  Jesus is exhausted from traveling and teaching, from the press of the crowds, from the noise of their endless questions and demands.  
Did he lie back on a pile of unused fishing nets or roll his robe into a pillow?  Did he sigh with relief as the tension floated away on the gentle waves?  Did he glory in the beauty of his father's creation as he drifted off to a well-earned nap?
He slept so soundly and so well that the sudden storm didn't even disturb him.  The howling winds, the violent waves, the shuddering, nearly capsizing boat; none were enough to rouse him.   It was only the terrified voices of the ones he loved that got his attention. 
He calmed the storm with only his voice, then turned to to them with the simple question, "Where is your faith?"
The picture of faith; the trust to close my eyes and rest in the midst of the storm.

"...Therefore take care how you listen.  For whoever has, more will be given to him; and whoever does not have, even what he thinks he has will be taken away from him"
Luke 8:18

"Stay with me.  Hang in there.  It's going to make sense in a few more minutes." 
It's the endless teacher's refrain, looking out on frustrated faces and books slammed shut.  In the middle of a half page math problem, some of them just give up.  Others insist they already know it; they have no need of my help.  But some, just keep struggling.   They write and erase, they question and correct, in short, they listen; until they suddenly, explosively get it.  

I remember that feeling to this day, from a high school physics class, when all the straggling threads suddenly came together in a whole I couldn't even explain how I knew.  It's the greatest joy of teaching to see my students experience that.  But I can't take them there.  I can present my lessons, I can guide and prompt, but only they can decide to try.  Only they can decide to listen.

In trials and in blessings, what will I decide?

But the seed in the good ground -- these are the ones who, having heard the word with an honest and good heart, hold on to it and by enduring bear fruit.
Luke 8:15

I always thought of fruit as something to work for.  I'm not sure why, a tree certainly doesn't work to bear its fruit.  It just does what its made to do.  In the right soil, with the right moisture and moderate temperatures, it explodes with juicy luscious fruit right on schedule.  But it can't do anything about any of those factors.  It just holds on, it just endures and responds to whatever comes its way. 

So instead of analyzing my life against a list of spirit fruit, instead of wondering where I should work harder and how I can improve a weak area, my job is just to hold on.  To hear the word with an honest heart, to cling to it against all storms, to endure; and wait for God to produce the fruit.

...Go and report to John the things you have seen and heard...
Luke 7: 22

The watchers in the crowd.  How long were they there I wonder, before they spoke up?  Had they followed him for hours or for days?  Had they stood at the edge of the crowd or nudged their way to the front?  Did they talk among themselves or the crowds or just take silent mental notes of awe and amazement?

Jesus didn't ask them to stay awhile and see what he was doing.  He didn't ask what they had seen so far, or what they thought of his words.  He knew they were there, watching, listening, analyzing, wondering.  He knew that every word, every gesture was forming in their minds a mosaic of who he was.
 
Only Jesus could announce with such confidence, "go and tell what you've seen".  Only Jesus could know that every action and every word was true, that nothing they could report gave anything but glory to his father. 

But the watchers are everywhere still.  Silent, serious eyes lost in the middle of an adolescent classroom, strangers in the grocery line,  neighbors on the street.  It's terrifying to wonder what they might report about me.  What do they see, what do they hear, what does every moment of my life say about who and whose I am?

BLTs at 8:45.  This is really not a good idea.  It almost impossible to reconcile myself to the thought that this is it.  Summer is really over.  Tomorrow morning I have children in my room.  Tomorrow night I take my daughter back to college.  The boys will leave by the weekend and my still bewildering role as empty nester will resume.

The deck door stands open still, the swing and the flowers tugging at me to spend my evening there.  The dishwasher hums and the crickets chirp and the laughter of teasing siblings and telephone chatter punctuate the joy of a summer night. 

I should be organizing my first day outfit, planning for a quick breakfast and a take along lunch.  I should be a bundle of nerves about my new students and all I need to accomplish in preparing them for the year.

I'm glad for once I'm not.  I rest in the joy of this one last night of summer, of frozen pizza, frying bacon, and the roasted squash of the healthy one. 

Live in harmony with one another. Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position.
Romans 12:16
School starts in two days. Another batch of eighth graders will saunter into my room. Delirious in the their position as reigning class of the middle school, they hide their first day jitters with excited chatter in the hall while stepping confidently around stumbling and bewildered sixth graders.
The nerves show up in class, though. They slip into their new rooms, suddenly unnaturally subdued. They obediently complete book checkout cards and introductory letters. Their feet rest quietly on the floor, their eyes focus intently on the teacher, they barely sneak a look at their friends, much less turn around and begin an unauthorized conversation.
Too bad it doesn't last.
The middle school heirarchy is clear. Eighth graders rule for those few short months, even as the terrifing spector of freshman year looms over them. Harmony isn't necessarily a word accossiated with middle school, but many of them do reach out to help the younger children. An amazing young leadership team at our school, partners with the incoming class and encourages them throughout the year.
It's hard to imagine who qualified as the low position in ancient Roman churches. These fledgling congregations Paul addresses could hardly be considered high. So why the need to tell them to reach out to the marginalized? Wouldn't that describe themselves? Maybe we never really manage to accept that, no matter where we are. We move through life up and then down then up again. Terrified sixth graders and confident eighth, freshman underdogs and mighty seniors. New jobs, new homes, new familes, always starting over, always being the new one somewhere. Love comes in remembering. It comes in looking above and knowing who we really are, then looking below to hold out a hand.

Since they could not find a way to bring him in because of the crowd, they went up on the roof and lowered him on the mat through the roof tiles into the middle of the crowd before Jesus.Luke 5:19

What a wild ride. How did they even get him on the roof?

I'm imagining a litter in an old war movie, two poles grasped by his friends as he rested on the canvas between them. That works fine for carting him to the house, or maybe even for gently lowering him down through the roof, but how did they get him up there?

I see him wide eyed and terrified, clutching the sides of the litter and begging his friends to be careful as his head and feet tilted and bumped and swayed higher and higher above the ground. It's a story of incredible faith, but whose? The friends definitely. Their boundless determination to get this man before Jesus is a picture of faith in action.

But what about the man himself?

Did he go willingly? It's not like he really had any power to stop them.

Did he expect a miracle, or merely indulge their kind thoughts?

Did he trust they wouldn't drop him on that bumpy trip of the side of the house, or did he beg to be returned to the quiet safety of his infirmity?

Either way, the miracle was his; the forgiveness of God, the strength to walk, the power to someday carry another helpless soul to the one who could make him whole.

But Jesus answered him,

"It is written,

Man must not live on bread alone."

Luke 4:4

There's a lot of bread around here in the summertime. My college kids come home with left over dorm snacks, craving their favorite treats, and plotting new culinary experiments impossible in the confines of a communal kitchen.

I don't know why I always think I'll eat healthier then. The lure of fresh fruits and vegetables and unstructured time create the illusion that I'll produce and enjoy wonderful healthy new recipes. I enjoy new recipes all right. A son's homemade calzones, a daughter's hot zucchini bread, and ice cream straight from the canister. There's fresh fruit too of course, but I'm not so sure it counts when it's layered over pound cake and the rest of that ice cream batch.

No, I certainly don't live on bread alone. More than all this though, I live on gentle morning breezes and a book on the deck; on the shared awe of a humming bird flitting around baskets of flowers; on the icy splash of ocean waves, and sitting of the rug teasing the cat. As summer draws to a close and their thoughts turn back to their lives far away, I live most of all on the treasure of children drifting into friends.

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